Sleep oh sleep, where for art thou?

So last night, I was alone, which is unusual. Normally my daughter's father is with me. But he was not, and so I decided that I would go to bed early. Madison goes down around 8:30, and I did not end up crawling into bed until a little after 10. And I laid there.....and laid there....and made some kind of noise that woke up Madison. So she cried, and when I finally got her settled in I could not fall asleep. She then woke me up, oh, 4, maybe 5 times until 8:45 this morning.

I wake up this morning and stumble into the kitchen and make myself a cup of coffee. I click on msn.com and see an article on 16 different ways to boost your metabolism in the new year. #16 was increased sleep. Apparently a study has been done that sleep deprived people gain weight.

Now what am I supposed to do about this one? I don't nap very well during the day. I wonder if anyone else is like that?

For breakfast I had a cup and a half of coffee, 2 pieces of toasted ezekiel bread and two eggs. I got a huge chocolate craving awhile ago so I had to small pieces of dark chocolate that I got for Christmas. So far so good. This afternoon I think I will have some mixed veges and maybe one of those lean pockets I bought because they are easy to stick in the microwave. Will probably have another cup of coffee.

I long for the energy that I used to have. For the fun it was getting dressed in the morning. It was great throwing together new colored scarfs with new tops and trying different styles of shoes. The clothes are all still there...they just don't fit. Deppressing!

My little girl is bouncing up and down in her baby einstien jumper and 'talking' to me. Dah....an Dah! OOhhhh A dah! She is beautiful. She is worth every bit of struggle I am having with my weight. But it's not the baby's fault I gained in the first place. I didn't manage the pregnancy gain as I should have. I was counting on this being easy, and for someone who has always be careful of what they ate I decided to just have a good time and eat as I pleased...now I wish I could take that back.

I have an ultimate goal of being able to fit into my size 8's by March 1st. Then down to my 6's by April 1st. And so on...I would like to dye my hair back to it's natural color in March. That's my goal anyway.

And day one of my journey, I am confident that I CAN DO THIS!