Struggling

I am having such a hard time sticking to positive changes. I have never struggled so much before. I am convinced it's because I am staying at home, caring for Maddie. Add rough nights, not getting enough sleep, being lazy, not having anywhere to go...I am sedintary. Then I end up overeating from being tired and breastfeeding. I think I put back on 10lbs from the holidays and my birthday.

I don't feel like me, I feel like I am trapped inside a body that not only doesn't look very good, it hurts...

So now that the birthday is over, I have the cake and ice cream gone in the house. I spent a lot of time thinking and praying yesterday. I did 26 sit ups before bed, we joined the YMCA 2 days ago...I can eat better even when my body doesn't feel good enough to work out.

I committed to doing sit ups every single night and tracking them by writing on paper that is posted on my fridge.

I can at least have lost 5-7lbs when I go to visit my sister in a month.

I believe in myself, I can do this and be back in my clothes and thin again and feeling good about me and life by summer. I CAN DO THIS.

I want to feel happy and positive and strong again.